So last week was my first official week blogging here at blogstream, actually blogging ever and it was mad cool. I got to get a lot of things out that I would usually just keep to myself and let bottle up until I'd explode. It's just a lot of fun. But that's not the purpose of this blog, the purpose is...well, just read it and find out.
Now before I get started with this blog I just have to let something out. It's really annoying when people criticize or down talks something that you have that they don't or can't get. I borrowed one of my family members car this weekend (my truck didn't have any gas in it and I only fill it up on sundays, another example of my "OCD" haha). Now, this family member drives a 2006 Carolla and my friend made this comment like "Oh, you drivin' the sh**ty Carolla?" and this person who's making this comment drives some old beat up 1960 something jeep...ok, when you get a car thats at least in the 90's, then you can come and say something, but until then, dont front like you driving a porche.
Now back to the topic at hand...
This weekend was really crazy. I got to do somethings I've been debating about doing for sometime now, not because anyone else was doing it or anything, but because I wanted to try it for myself. Now I told one my friends what I was going to be doing this weekend and they were like " Oh that's stupid" and "You shouldn't do it" and stuff like that. But really, it all comes down to what I wanted to do and me making the decision for myself. Not saying I don't care about my friends opinions or anything but if it's something I really want to do, than I'm gonna go for it, regardless of what others say. And that's what I did. So that was pretty cool. I may not be doing that again anytime soon though hahaha, but I got to step outside the box for once.
Also, this weekend was just a really good awakening to somethings for me. I use to care a lot about pointless sh** that was holding me back from seeing the good in life and how fortunate I am. Things like: what people think of me, friends who weren't really friends, and how people looked at me. I always seemed to have to put on a front for some people because I didn't want that particular person to really know "me". I felt like if that person really knew me, then things would change, and I'm not the kind of person who adapts to change very well. A lot of people look at me and think I'm the same person from way back when but when really I've changed a lot and a lot of those people or "friends" expect me to still be that same old Tyler.
I use to try to hold on to friends who just weren't interested in being friends anymore and wasted a lot of time trying to glue pieces back together that would eventually fall back off again. I use to care a lot about how I was being viewed. The good guy, the bad guy, the funny guy, whatever. I just let those type of thoughts or comments run my life for too long and this weekend really helped me to see that it's not about all that. It's just really about...me, and how I see myself and what I know is the truth about me, what kind of a friend I am and what kind of a friend I deserve to have. And by realizing this, it opend my eyes to see how many good people I have already and that I dont care about what other people think of me.
It feels like a whole new beginning when you just push all that negative sh** out your life and just focus on the good. I woke up this morning without any worries or anything, I was in a really good mood (now mind you I'm not a morning person at all) and things were just going really good for me. It's been like that all day.
Anyone who's dealing with a lot of negative sh** in their life right now, I just wanna say, let it go. Don't focus on it. Life is to short to focus on the bad all the time and once you do let it go, your outlook on a lot of things will start to look better.
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